Feeling Like...

a train just fucking hit me.

Hey guys, Jeff here.

Something feels off about me today.

Fallen was more attentive to me than usual.

I tried to get up from bed this morning,
almost tripped, and she came out of nowhere,
caught me, and carried me to the table.

It all started yesterday.

Last night, I was trying to sleep.
Thank god that I managed to.

I got a few good hours in, and when I woke up, Fallen was lying next to me.

I mean, not even in the cute way.
She was just laying there,  staring at me.

And  she has me wrapped up in her arms.
I thought it seemed soft and warm, and realized why.
She wears a closed robe with the hood pulled up,
so I have no idea what the rest of her body looks like.
She's...um... very developed.

But enough about my busty Hallow nanny.

I asked her why she was doing this.

She answered that she wished to comfort me.
I wondered why, and then everything went blank.

All I could feel was some deep, burning pain.
It lasted for what seemed like eternity.

I heard something.
A voice. Telling me to bend my will.
Telling me to join them.

Every time I thought .
No.
No.
No.
NO.
NO!

And, the pain kept getting worse.
I thought about my friends.
I thought about my family.
They would never get me.
They would never get them.
I screamed and cried out.
I felt rage like nothing else was there.

And then, it stopped.
It was strange.

I felt like I was being cleansed by heat.
And I mean the mushy heart kind that someone gets when they're in love.

Then the cold began.
It pierced every part of my body.
I screamed again. Harder than I've ever screamed before.

It sheared and lacerated the inside of my chest.
But I didn't give in. I didn't want to.

I heard a guttural yell.
And then. Nothing.

No noises.
No pain.

I woke up and felt like shit.
After breakfast Fallen went out on patrol again.

So, I'm basically alone here.

Hey guys, who has two thumbs and  just won against a mind fuck?

This guy.

-Jeff